Tuesday, May 19, 2009

9:25 p.m......

and I want this day to end. Today I'm tired of being a mommy with no other identity. Today I'm tired or wiping noses and butts. Today I am tired of cooking and cleaning. Today I'm tired of running all over creation. Today I'm tired of being FAT! Today I'm just flat tired of being me.

9:27 p.m.

Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow I will be happy to have no other identity than Caden, Reece, and Ellee's mommy. Tomorrow I will continue to wipe noses and butts with a smile on my face. Tomorrow I will cook and clean because my family depends on me. Tomorrow I will be the taxi driver for my children. Tomorrow I will still be...well....FAT.....but I will try to do a better job of addressing that. Tomorrow I will try really hard to just be happy being me.

9:29 p.m.

This day is almost over and tomorrow is a new one. Tonight I will tuck my kids in and apologize once again for being the meanest Mommy on the planet. They will hug my neck and tell me it's OK......They forgive me. That happens more often than I really want it too, however, I am so thankful that I have these 3 little lives to tell me it's OK and that I'm the best Mommy in the whole world. I just wish I felt that way today!

9:32 p.m.

Today I am just having trouble seeing the bright side of life.....guess I will polish the dull side and hope for the best!

9:36 p.m.

1 comment:

  1. You always make me cry when I read this...you have a different identity than just mom...you are a friend as well. I love you to death and have been there for me in so many ways...we all feel the way you do on many different days, so much as we would love to walk away sometimes we would never do that cause our lives without kids would be pointless...I am here on any day good or bad, you are my FRIEND and I hope you understand this world is better because you are in it...you have a HUGE heart and I sure wish I could repay you for everything you have done for me...hey give me them kids for a day so you can have Trasie time I will wipe their noses and butts that is the least I can do...please lets plan that...Love ya Girl...Lisa

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